On Healing
Photograph by: Roc Rochon
I grew a thing. A living, breathing, growing thing. I fed it. I watered it. I gave it purpose. Now, that thing which I grew is growing me…teaching me how to save my own life…by loving me. Not in pretty words or aspirational sentiment but in praxis. Self-love literally saves lives. No medicine, medical procedure, herb, or dietary change can heal what has been deemed unworthy by the self.
I…magic woman…child of the moon…water Spirit…snake medicine in my hands, wolf medicine in my heart, and dragonfly as my guide, grew a brain tumor the size of an egg and shaped like the Sun. A reminder of my fierceness for when I forget my God-self. For a decade or so I forgot who I was but didn’t stop being who I am, so I did what I do and created.
Dearest, I share this that it may be a reminder that unexpressed energy will find a way to express itself. Anger, sadness, hurt, and grief may appear evanescent but when internalized they take the solid form of matter. So, honor the seasons by releasing what needs to transition. Do despite fear and make space for the medicine on the other side. When we exhale, we do not lament the release of that breath. Moved by our original ways of knowing, we simply surrender to the natural current guiding us to receive and release the next one. Embody faith and practice inhaling and exhaling with your whole being.
Remember everything we repeat is a ritual practice…prayer practice…from breathing to bathing…be it mindfully or mindlessly… we are always directing energy. It is our consciousness around it that determines whether our practices manifest profound suffering or immense liberation. Let’s practice self-love consciously, deliberately, unapologetically, literally, remembering when all is said and done, we are what we practice.
Until next time, be like water my friends. Reflect and flow.
1. What are you working on healing?
2. What are your conditions of satisfaction?
3. What needs to be released to allow for the healing?
4. What are the barriers to letting go?
5. What would be more possible on the other side of the release?